The Earth is not a cold dead place

~

2008-05-25T05:49:03Z

All I want to do with my life is put smiles on faces and love in all places.

Without this, my life is worth nothing.

asidropthismask @ 2008-03-12T12:48:00

2008-03-12T16:49:17Z

I've Gone Friends Only

Peeace!

asidropthismask @ 2008-02-25T12:49:00

2008-02-25T17:53:08Z

1) This weeks tests
2) exercise
3) eat healthy
4) General GRE's
5) Psychology GRE's
6) Graduate School Applications
7) Internship process

... let the fun begin

asidropthismask @ 2008-01-08T22:57:00

2008-01-09T03:57:47Z

all we need is positive people.

asidropthismask @ 2007-12-09T23:07:00

2007-12-10T04:22:27Z

If i had the tongue to speak 100 different languages, I'd tell you one thing....

Ek het jou lief
Te dua
Ana behibek (to female)
Yes kez sirumem
M'bi fe
Ami tomake bhalobashi
Ya tabe kahayu
Nahigugma ako kanimo
Obicham te
Soro lahn nhee ah
Ngo oiy ney a
T'estimo
Tsi ge yu i
Ne mohotatse
Ndimakukonda
Kisakihitin
Mi aime jou
Volim te
Miluji te
Jeg Elsker Dig
Ik hou van jou
Mi amas vin
Ma armastan sind
Afgreki'
Eg elski teg
Doset daram
Mahal kita
Mina rakastan sinua
Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Ik h�ld fan dy
Ta gra agam ort
Mikvarhar
Ich liebe dich
S'agapo
Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Palangga ko ikaw
Aloha Au Ia`oe
ani ohev otach
Hiligaynon
higugma ko ikaw
Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Kuv hlub koj
Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Szeretlek
Eg elska tig
Palangga ko ikaw
Saya cinta padamu
Negligevapse
Taim i' ngra leat
Ti amo
Aishiteru
anata ga daisuki desu
Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kaluguran daka
Nakupenda
Tu magel moga cho
Sarang Heyo
Nanun tangshinul sarang hamnida
Te amo
Es tevi miilu
Bahibak
Tave myliu
Ech hun dech ger
Te Sakam
Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Inhobbok
Wo ai ni
Me tula prem karto
Kanbhik
Ana moajaba bik
Ni mits neki
Ayor anosh'ni
Jeg Elsker Deg
Syota na kita!!
Inaru Taka
Mi ta stimabo
Doo-set daaram
Iay ovlay ouyay
Kocham Ciebie
Eu te amo
Te iubesc
Ya tebya liubliu
Tha gra\dh agam ort
Volim te
Ke a go rata
,\,,/
Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Techihhila
Lu`bim ta
Ljubim te
Te amo
Ninapenda wewe
Jag alskar dig
Ich lieb Di
Mi lobi joe
Mahal kita
Wa ga ei li
Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Phom rak khun (to female)
Rak te
Seni Seviyorum
Ya tebe kahayu
mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Anh ye^u em
Em ye^u anh
'Rwy'n dy garu di
Ikh hob dikh
Mo ni fe

....A hundred times

certainty

2007-11-13T08:08:30Z

i have a plan.

for once in my life
i know what i want
who i want
where i want to end up
and how i'm going to get there
I just have to keep doing what im doing

And i'll make it.

asidropthismask @ 2007-08-17T20:20:00

2007-08-18T00:26:53Z

1 more week

until i feel i have a purpose,
until i have a place to call my own,
until my arms are filled and my bed is warm with you,
until i am truely happy again,
until i am whole again,

until i am home.

asidropthismask @ 2007-08-14T16:47:00

2007-08-14T20:48:36Z

i am so in love, it scares me to death.

but im confident, and you keep me afloat.

asidropthismask @ 2007-08-05T02:46:00

2007-08-05T07:03:42Z

things are going okay.

one more week of usdan left. im gonna miss it, but not at the same time. then ill be back to work with my dad for the last 3 weeks, hopefully i can get him caught up and give him a break. he needs it.. as always

its been a pretty busy summer. lots of fun though. im glad i get to see courtney all the time, and i love my friends. the small group thats left anyway. haha everyones pretty much gone, and done with this small ghost town. amanda's still awesome, and so is meg reuben and nick. ive been having fun adventures with them lately and some other peeps. scavanger hunt on wednesday. 5 on 5. oh god, i cant wait. gonna be burning rubber with that astro van. haha

been back and forth to the city a lot just chillin and doin the show thing. couldve played brooklyn with a friend friday night. open slot, and open ears. but ehh. just wasnt feelin it the afternoon of.

id like to get some ink before i go back. we'll see how that goes. i want recording shit too. i hate money

mm my gf is awesome.. she keeps me ecstatic. 6 months on the 8th. woo woo. time flies.

ummm, cant think of anything else right now. went up to middletown to see my cousins today. that was sweet. wish i didnt have to drive my rents back down, cuz then i wouldve driven over to monroe/washingtonville to see my budz.

still got the chris thing on my mind. kinda cant shake it sometimes. i watch the kids at work and worry about what they'll grow up having to face. i worry some will have the same fate. they're so bright, artistic, intelligent. though not exactly behaved well sometimes, they will grow up in a completely different world than we did.

oh, and a pet peeve of mine is when im reading the world news section, reading about all the injustices and horror thats occuring, and a snotty girl with a popped collar takes it upon herself to ask me for the paper so she can read about which celebrity is fucking which. oh the good old american way.

cant wait to get back to school. thatll be nice. i miss my friends a lot

i disreguard all grammar and mechanics in lj. sorry. im not illiterate, just lazy

asidropthismask @ 2007-07-27T17:27:00

2007-07-27T21:32:59Z

its hard going to a wake and seeing your close friends from highschool and not being able to be truely happy about seeing them due to the circumstances.

but we were in eachothers company. some more there for support of a friend and some there to mourn.

its just all so terrible. he deserved to live.

asidropthismask @ 2007-07-21T23:08:00

2007-07-22T03:12:42Z

just one more name etched into a wall

one more life

21 years old and in a box

fuck you george bush.

fuck you.

r.i.p. chris scherer

homesick for a place that doesnt exist

2007-07-05T22:23:36Z

i dont care where, just far.
(with you by my side)

asidropthismask @ 2007-07-02T00:11:00

2007-07-02T05:01:03Z

things have been going really well lately.

last week went to brooklyn on monday to see kevin devine play at this bar in williamsburg. it was chill. he was just wingin it- him and this drummer. he played me and courtney's song. woo woo

tuesday went into the city again and visited kathleen at her sister's apt in the business district near wall street. kinda neat over there. not sure if i like it. it's just different

thursday i went to the city again with courtney and Leah to see rocky votalato play. limbeck sucked, langhorne slim was fucking awesome, and rocky was good, except for the fact that his new stuff sounds a little too country for my liking. all in all. twas good.

this weekend just hung around and did stuff around. snuck off for an hour to catch courtney on her break, but otherwise spent the weekend chillin out with my family and relaxing.
this morning i went kyaking. kyaked all the way from scudder to eaton's neck. thats a fucking crazy trek, but i loved every second of it. took me a few hours. waters were rough and it was windy on the way out. i was paddling against both. the way back woulda been good except for the fact that i was way spent from the way out.
saw my niece today. got her this sweet magnetic building set for her 1st birthday. figure it's good for her motor skills and what not and its something that she'll have fun with at different levels for a few years. she's so gorgeous and soo smart. walks on her own, talks, knows sign language and never misbehaves. god i love her. woo.
tomorrow is camp again. oh yay. 1st week was nice. this week we'll see. the kids are already getting used to the sound of my vloice telling them no, so i think its just a matter of time before they dont hear me anymore.

things with courtney are awesome and i couldnt ask for better. she's coming over tomorrow and we're watching the notebook. dont be jealous.. or laugh. is a fucking good movie..

i miss my friends up in oneonta. they are my life and it sucks that i cant just be with everyone all the time. soon enough though!

oh, and i had a few too many whiskey and coke's last night and went on ebay..
proud owner of a ps2 now including 9 games, 3 controllers and 3 memory cards
it was a package deal, no worries, i didnt go that crazy and bid on all those individually.
haha. oops. well now i can dedicate part of my time to grand theft auto. yayyy

its late. i feel strange. or weird.. but in a good way. night!

asidropthismask @ 2007-06-27T21:57:00

2007-06-28T02:06:33Z

thank you for being the sun on my face.
you saved me.

asidropthismask @ 2007-06-24T10:56:00

2007-06-24T15:01:45Z

dear myself,
chill out. have faith, be happy, and enjoy it while you have it... which will hopefully be for a really really long time or somethin. dont look back. just keep running. stop being an asshole and trust yourself and others. you've been through too much shit to not deserve to just be confident and happy. oh, and last night, you snored so loud, you woke yourself up. please dont turn into your father.
reguards,
myself

asidropthismask @ 2007-06-20T23:43:00

2007-06-21T03:46:53Z

im dedicating myself to music like how i used to be.
im going to take people's advice and stop being so insecure and hard on myself,
and just do it.
life is inspiring right now.
i have things to write about
people to write about
life is good.
thank you, God.
my life is coming together
and my confidence is coming back up.
and i have faith in things
and the people around me.
i
love
life.

asidropthismask @ 2007-06-10T03:39:00

2007-06-10T07:41:25Z

when it comes to the things most important to me,
the english langauge is lacking adequate description of emotion.
so i'll just call it Love
(in the highest reguard)

asidropthismask @ 2007-05-26T02:18:00

2007-05-26T06:19:10Z

im selfish. but i dont care.

asidropthismask @ 2007-05-18T01:04:00

2007-05-18T06:29:36Z

Im home from school and summer's finally started. Isnt this what i wanted?
Well there's a lot of work to be done around the house. All thats really left is the wood floors, and they can't put those down till the place is painted- that's where i come in. Im actually looking foward to it. It'll keep me busy and feeling productive. I've got a month before work starts so it'll be good. and i like being handy anyway.

Home has its downsides though. I havent slept by myself for more than a break's length for over 3 months. I just want to wake up and see her there. This will be hard at first. but there's so much to look foward to this summer that i just gotta keep reminding myself about.. starting with the Kevin Devine show in Brooklyn on sat night. woot woot. cant wait for that. But yea, in all seriousness. im pretty sad about not pretty much living together for the 3 months of the summer. But we'll figure it out and see eachother a lot.

Ooo, and if i end up with free time after i paint, i get to sand the bottom of the boat and paint it before it goes in the water.. woo.

Today i hung out with amanda, went to a friend's dad's wake.. no fun. Though hanging out with her before and after that was. This whole summer thing is going to take some getting used to. I stayed up last night a primed the whole hallway, ceiling and walls because i couldnt fall asleep on my own. I tired myself out enough painting from 1230 to 330 am though.

okay. im gonna go and try to sleep without doing manual labor for 3 years

asidropthismask @ 2007-05-05T17:13:00

2007-05-05T21:13:49Z

lucky lucky lucky

and i feel good about the future.

did i mention lucky?

asidropthismask @ 2007-04-24T13:55:00

2007-04-24T17:59:44Z

so when i said that i'll be okay concerning school... i might have lied.

these last weeks are going to suck. anyone, please kick me in the ass if you see me slacking anymore.

i just hope its not too late.

asidropthismask @ 2007-04-23T11:25:00

2007-04-23T15:39:21Z

so this weather is pretty fucking nice. friends are awesome. i love my girlfriend. what else do i need..

...oh yea.. school. "about that"

looks like im gonna have to step it up the end of this semester, but hey, whats new. Seems to be my academic history repeating itself. slack off, then freak out at the end of the semester for a strong finish. haha

ill be okay.

yesterday i went sun bathing with courtney, monica and steph. Maybe ill work a little harder to prevent my well known farmer's tan. it was good though, then we came back to my dorm and watched american history x. Always an eye opening movie. made me think, a lot. As it always does. race, inequalities that people try so hard to overcome. not to mention watching it with a diverse group of friends meant a lot too. its sad the way things are and the way people are so close minded and terrible. why cant we all jsut love one another.

i'm finally inspired. Don Ross and Andy McGee played last night. Ive been listening to Don Ross since 9th grade. I've never in my live witnessed such a talented musician. I got to shake his hand and tell him i wrote my IB Music Degree paper on him. hahah.

after that, took a nice walk with courtney and layed out under the stars by the new york late and talked about a lot of things. (truth is i love hearing you talk) I like stories and hearing about experiences, both good and bad. just everything that shaped people into what they are today. Im certainly glad you came out the way you did. and i love you for it

i have a show tonight with the cast before. thought it was tomorrow. oops. lol but yea, its gonna be good. im excited. fun music.

so everything in life is great right now. ill get working on the school part of it. im praying so hard that this all stays constant. mm.

woot.

ooh yea, and road trip with my honey starting thurs night. wooot wooot.

asidropthismask @ 2007-04-16T15:16:00

2007-04-16T19:17:11Z

yea whateva.

got better things to do.

woot woot.

asidropthismask @ 2007-03-31T11:24:00

2007-03-31T15:27:29Z

i wont ever get sick of telling you either.

because you are the day break.

asidropthismask @ 2007-03-26T19:37:00

2007-03-26T23:37:44Z

i know my cantonese is messy, but this is for you babe-